Not caring about the money - probably good, but a bit frightening

[DrewOnTilt]

Apparently, last Sunday I had my worst loss ever in terms of raw dollar amount. I say "apparently" because I just realized this fact today.

The loss occurred on the 2nd day of a weekend trip to Atlantic City. I spent the whole ride home thinking about the mistakes that I made during the session, such as not leaving when the table turned tough, and several hands that I should have laid down. A bad fold that I made on the river is still eating at me a bit even now.

Not until today did it occur to me that in the course of 8 hours I blew through the equivalent of my monthly after-tax pay from my day job.

Is that because that after 2 1/2 years of playing this game that I am accustomed to variance, that I understand the mistakes that I made during the session, and that the chips are just plastic? Or, maybe because I booked a decent win the night before, finished only moderately down for the weekend, and am just under my all-time high in terms of total wins? If so, then that's a good thing, since I used to be a major tilt-monster.

Still, I lost over 8% of my yearly pay in the course of a day and didn't even realize it until almost 3 days later. That's [censored] sick, and also a bit frightening. [img]/images/graemlins/tongue.gif[/img]