talk about a downswing / Will take a break (semi-long)

[Colima420]

Mods: If more appropiate, please move to psychology or where this should be at.

I started playing March 1st with a $60 deposit at the $11's and $16's SNG's. I kept every single record. Because of school and work, I could only play about 1-3 hours per day. By June 26, my stats were the following after 388 games:

Total profit = $506
ITM = 38.14%
ROI = 10.87%



From that day to the present, something terrible happened in which I went down to the following stats after 123 games (511 total):

total profit = $53
ITM = 36.40%
ROI = 0.8%



I have tried to understand why this happened. Here are the differences between my situation prior to June 26 and after:

Prior .- Had a full time college schedule.
Had a part time job.
Would play only 1-2 tables at a time for 1-3 hours a day.

Post June 26.- Not in school (summer vacation)
Not currently in job (business closed, lay everyone off)
Played about 5-6 tables at a time for about 6-8 hours.

Now, there could be a number of reasons of why this downswing happened to me:

1.- Variance. Although variance is inevitable and it happens to everyone, I feel that saying that it is variance is not assuming my responsibility. I think it is somehow my fault, not variance.
2.- Too much time on my hands . Because of not having school or work, all I do is play poker. Maybe pre June 26, poker was really fun and now it's like a burnout. Having a balance was probably good for me.
3.- Being too ambitious and wanting to become a multitable expert in order to increase my hourly rate.

While I think that option 2 may have played a part, I believe that it is really option 3 that caused this. There is no one to blame but myself. Instead of being satisfied with my $2.5 hourly rate at the time and trying to improve it gradually, I wanted to improve it dramatically. My greed most likely caused this.

I know that for winning players, $2.5/hr is ridiculous. But if compared to the thousands of loosing players, then it doesn't sound so bad, especially for someone who just started in March.

So what have I learned here:

I learned that I should be more patient and slowly build my skill level instead of wanting to force it.
I learned that I should be grateful with things that are not going bad, instead of greedily wanting things to be much better.
And most importantly, I learned the greatest lesson of all: <u>humbleness</u>.

[AlwaysAir]

what is with all these long posts in BBV, what happened to one liners.

[Kala1928]

How about play less tables and play less every day.