no point in life?

[inyourface]

** I know this isn't poker related but I'm not posting this in BBV4L or OOT - I'm not stupid** (I just need some advice)

Hey all, I was going to make a gimmick account to make this post but as I don't really know anyone on here it wouldnt make much difference.

If anything I just needed to type it out instead of just keeping it to myself and pray someone gives some advice and not a rickroll or a DIAF comment.

I'm only 22 but last week while I was working I suddenly realised I was going to be doing the same boring job for years (I dropped out of University with a 'few' debts two years ago.) and while my friends are all finishing masters degrees and putting mortgages down I am only working to pay rent to my parents and pay off this god forsaken loan which means I make approx £1000 a month at the moment but get less than £300 to myself every month.

I hate my job and hate my life. I can't afford to take a holiday because I am trying to save for real life things like a flat etc. I drive a beat down BMW (see my [censored] it post lol, good times!) and have lost contact with most of my friends who are in Uni or work better jobs than me and have found a new circle of colleagues/friends to hang out with.

I spend most of my time in work then I will go home, have a shower, check on the 3 or 4 forums I am a member of just to catch up on anything that happens. I have something to eat and then literally just wait for the next day to start. It sickens me that I spend more time in work than I get free time to myself.

Work is a facade for me, I have to appear happy etc. for the boss and the customers but I literally can't keep it up. It's also sad for me that I have to come online to tell anyone who will listen and most people who don't care.

I don't expect I will be debt free for over a year at this rate and every thought I have is that every choice I've made in my life has been th wrong one.

I relly don't know what to do to turn things around and I'm hoping someone can suggest something because I don't want to do anything drastic if you get my meaning but the gravity of my situation has been weighing on my for a while now.

It's my birthday on the 10th October and I don't think I've ever felt worse about something I'm supposed to celebrate, what the hell have I got to be happy about?