Song lyrics that either hit home or have personal meaning

[Kimbell175113]

"The Opposite of Hallelujah" by Jens Lekman

http://www.scjag.com/mp3/sc/oppositeofhallelujah.mp3

(most relevant part of the lyrics bolded, but I'd recommend listening to the whole thing, at the link above)

I took my sister down to the ocean
But the ocean made me feel stupid
Those words of wisdom I had prepared
All seemed to vanish into thin air
Into the waves I stared

I picked up a seashell
To illustrate my homelessness
But a crab crawled out of it
Making it useless

And all my metaphors fell flat
Down on the rocks where we sat
She asked where are you at?

But sister, it's the opposite of hallelujah
It's the opposite of being you
You don't know 'cause it just passes right through you
You don't know what I'm going through

You don't know what I'm going through
You don't know what I'm going through
You don't know what I'm going through

We made our way home on the bikes we had borrowed
I still never told you about unstoppable sorrow
You still think I'm someone to look up to
I still don't know anything about you
Is it in you too?

You've got so much to live for, little sister
You've got so much to live for

But sister, it's the opposite of hallelujah
It's the opposite of being you
You don't know cause it just passes right through you
You don't know what I'm going through

You don't know what I'm going through
You don't know what I'm going through
You don't know what I'm going through
You don't know what I'm going through

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I have a sister 12 years younger than me, and there are moments where she very much reminds me of myself. Sometimes this is a good thing: she excels in school, loves to read, etc. in the same way that I did. But most of the time I'm concerned. It feels like the family resemblance is much more of a curse, and I'm afraid that in the future she's going to face the awful depression and insecurity that has caused problems for my dad and me. The line "I still never told you about unstoppable sorrow" just preys on my worst fears in the world.