Ask BOTW what it is like to be a stalker...

[BOTW]

Hi Blarg. I take full responsibilty for my actions and my actions were very bad. I was a very dangerous person, especially when drunk. I am very fortunate things turned out the way they did. Had I not been arrested, I don't think I would have changed. Being arrested did not directly change me and I don't think that anything our legal system could have done would. But, being arrested did help me start thinking which eventually led to me wanting to change.

Everyone around me knew there was a problem, but no one knew what to do. My friends and family tried to help. They were very frustrated with me since I didn't appear to be listening to them though they did listen to me. They tried to convince me to stop. I had my keys forcefully taken from me a number of times. I thank my family and friends for caring enough to listen and trying to help. Even though I didn't appear to be listening at the time, I hear them now.

The "unfortunately, no one died" is a lame attempt at humor. I fully intended to maim her boyfriend on a number of occasions. It wasn't until after her bf moved that I discovered how easily I could have invaded his home.

There does exist a disconnect on my part: I can't believe the things I thought and did were really me, but they really were me. I was a sad, jealous, pathetic and angry person. I try to laugh about it now even though it is not remotely funny. If I sound as though I am close to that place it is because I am. It is painful to think about this. I regret the things I did.

The girl is blameless. However, she did some things that I would not recommend my sister, Mom or friends do if confronted with a similar situation. 1) Tell your friends and family. I don't think her Mom would have helped me had she known the full extent of my activities. 2) Stop all contact. By answering the phone one time you are guaranteed many, many more calls. A restraining order just lets me know you are still thinking of me. 3) Call the police at the first sign of trouble. It is surprising to me now how long it took for the cops to get involved.