social anxiety

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For me, I just wouldnt want to go out unless I could get an oc to get [censored] up. Going out lost its fun. I wasnt an addict, because I wouldnt do drugs (besides smokin weed) on an everyday basis, but if my friends wanted to go to the bar on a weekend night, for me to get motivated to go out and enjoy myself without feeling uneasy was to get an Oxy. I just wouldnt have fun just getting drunk, Id feel uneasy around large groups of people and get this totally uncomfortably feeling like people were talking [censored] about me, or looking at me weird.

But maybe previous years of drug use just completely [censored] my brain and self esteem up. I remember being younger where I was very outgoing and never shy, and now Im usually shy and keep to myself if I go out, that is unless I get drunk or take an oscar. Maybe the pot also gives me the anxiety, not sure, but pot also makes my life much more enjoyable to watch movies and eat food [img]/images/graemlins/smile.gif[/img]