NERVOUS BREAKDOWN anyone?

[kyzerjose]

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5. Avoid excessive drinking and cannabis, eat healthily etc
Ruffian

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Ruff pretty much nailed it but........if you start taking antidepressants, avoid other mood altering substances.

Here's a decent CT based book. Cheap and easy to understand.

Recovery is possible. It's taken you a lifetime to get where you are. Don't expect an overnight "cure".
Some forms of depression last for a lifetime. Like any other health related problem, you can manage your disease effectively through psychopharmacology & therapy.

Best of luck.

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Thanks ruff.

Warning-long post ahead!

As you may have guessed, i had a bit of a nervous breakdown about a month ago.

Had a week in a psych hospital, another week off, and have been back at work for a week.

Thankfully, my breakdown wasnt work related, so am hoping to get back to my life relatively normally.

The doc said i could basically take or leave the antidepressants, but said i really had to take them for six months, if i was going to. I decided i would, as i was doing things on the cheap (I was out of pocket 2.5k for the week in hospital)

Funnily enough, my poker results really mirrored my life tilt scenario when i had my last major life stressors (was about to dump my gf, lose my house, etc etc post divorce). I was up $300 on PLO8 after about 9k hands, and donked it all off in a couple of days! OUch. But, this time, i have just been going great guns on the tourneys at stars, and had even just moved up to the $10! (only played 80, but am up 50 odd%) So that is kinda weird in hindsight.

My main problem is i seem to have a kind of a background headache, nothing too much, but even noises at a normal level (ie conversation/tele watching/ background noises) seem to really give me the [censored]. Also, i seem to have the feeling of possible anxiety for no real reason.

I just have to kind of keep on track, which is both easy and difficult simultaneously

Have dealt with most of my crud, which was basically grief/loss issues of divorce/ post natal depression which my x suffered from terribly. Had fckn useless parents in law that couldnt give a damm about their daughter or their grandsons, but could proudly stand up at family do's and proclaim that 'family is the most important thing' (excepting of course, their social life and their boat, and anything else that would crop up. Ironically enough, the x's aunty did about 95+% of the mothering needed). The in laws had an open invitation to visit any time, but they were always 'busy'. THen they would be 'busy for a month'. THen, it was 'ring us in three months time'. Funnily enough, even after her mum asked me about the problems the x (wife at that stage) was having, she still offered no support. Even after going to a sleep disorder clinic (for the baby) wasnt enough, nor the second time, nor the third time was enough for them to give up an afternoon in their lives to have a coffee with their daughter. The x nailed it on the head when, (about a month after we separated,and her mum was coming up to visit) she said 'mum was never there for me when i needed her, and she cant tell me how to run my life now"

Add the fact that my life cannot ever prolly turn out the way i wanted it to (happily married, to a non goldigger) and a couple of tilty issues with women (met a nice lady, pity i didnt meet her 15 years ago, but the chemistry was immediately extinguished when she found out i had three boys. As the saying goes, oh well) and life just got that bit too much to bear.

Was at the hospital, when i saw a couple of colleagues, one in my year at uni, who had a horrid breakdown, and a specialist (dentist) in their for his cocaine and alcoholism. Kinda really brought home the fact that this sort of shiiit cuts across all social strata indiscriminantly.

Thought this might be an interesting post on a number of levels. Depression/breakdowns/life tilt etc.

It is really hard to recognise what is going on when it is going on, and realise that there is good help and advice out there to sort yourself out. Its kinda like being on tilt for months at a time, but just functioning enough to not realise that you are horridly tilted.