December's "You'll Shoot Your Eye Out" NC Chat thread

[Blarg]

Hope you don't feel too bad for too long, daveT. Everybody's been there or some recognizable variation of it. It can be impossible to imagine getting past it, but almost everyone does, almost always, and you will too. Sometimes the journey sucks hard for a while, for sure.

Also,

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It is not about her, as it is about other things, but she is a manifestation of the myriad failures that I have had over my lifetime.


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...don't ever get into the trap of letting one thing symbolize another. That's self-indulgence, pure torture, and an emotional death spiral if anything goes wrong, and at best unrealistic and misleading if something goes right. It's an escape from reality either way, and wastes emotional energy.

It's super hard not to think that way when depressed, though. But you have to get that kind of thought trap out of your brain as if you were hosing red ants, maggots, and ebola-laced dogpoop out from between your toes. And maybe sharks...if there were...like, these really tiny sharks...and then these sharks LIVED in the dogpoop, and...well, I think you can see where I'm going with this...

[daveT]

[img]/images/graemlins/spade.gif[/img]That mind-set has been the bane of my entire life, and it is something I am constantly working on. It's not the individual thing, but a compilation of things. I guess you get the point, but have a hard time manifesting it into words as well.

Aren't we all glad that this can't possibly continue into tomorrow? [img]/images/graemlins/grin.gif[/img]

Actually, Blarg, I am not at the level of thinking that you are at yet, so I am probably wrong, and that is a new perspective.

I really, really want to apologize for bogging down the forum with this. Four pages, yuk! Can't look good that I come to a forum for help, but I can't possibly cry on her shoulder, now can I? [img]/images/graemlins/smirk.gif[/img]

Sending the letter lifted a huge weight. She was probably more stress than I needed. [img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img]

[img]/images/graemlins/heart.gif[/img]Thanks a ton, guys.