i am an embarrassment

nation · #1 10-01-2007, 05:16 AM

So after being burnt out for the past 6 months and barely playing, my life savings have finally dwindled to ~12k. I am posting this because hopefully this will help me have some accountability.

I have basically not played at all. I got complacent knowing I had enough money to live without working, and have consistently used the excuse that most people my age live paycheck to paycheck and have no savings.

I'm going to be 23 soon, and I think it's time for me to start busting my ass and making money. I've always said that I don't want to be a low limit grinder forever and that I want to play midstakes at the least.

I'm basically spending too much and not caring that I'm not playing enough to cover my monthly nut. Last month I spent probably like 3k total and barely played.

As I said earlier, I'm down to 12k. For whatever reason, I've finally realized that this situation and this laziness is unacceptable.

I am going to play 6 hours a day 4-6 tabling 200nl. I know playing 6-7 days a week is impossible, but I will not stand for less than 5. I am going to attempt to spend no more than my expenses and frugal entertainment costs. This will not be a blind play as many hands as possible marathon either. This is about making money, and I have to exert discipline and focus on playing optimally, even when I am running poorly.

I'm going to try to stay away from going out to party every weekend. Once in awhile is acceptable, but I have not worked hard enough in the past 6 months to justify the reward of relaxing by going out and partying at the end of the week. Instead, my non-poker activities will be spent constructively going to play basketball and tennis, which I enjoy immensely.

I'm not going to be upset by the inevitable sarcastic responses because I deserve the ridicule for letting my finances fall into such shambles. I brought it on myself because of my laziness. This situation is unacceptable for someone who is not a student and who supports himself solely through poker.

At the end of this month, hopefully I will have good results to report back to BBV. There will be no letup thereafter either. I don't want to be a bum.

-nation

jfish · #2 10-01-2007, 05:18 AM

thank me later, but dont put in massive amounts of hands. play 1-2 tables and focus on decisions.

nation · #3 10-01-2007, 05:21 AM

jfish,

"This will not be a blind play as many hands as possible marathon either. This is about making money, and I have to exert discipline and focus on playing optimally, even when I am running poorly."

i edited before you replied.

Bulletproof Monk · #4 10-01-2007, 05:21 AM

nice post, gl with it all

UptownExpress · #5 10-01-2007, 05:25 AM

i'll be at ur tables making sure u lose. :_)

1968 · #6 10-01-2007, 05:35 AM

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thank me later, but dont put in massive amounts of hands. play 1-2 tables and focus on decisions.

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1-2 is ridiculously boring- which leads to playing bad.. 4-6 sounds good and easily doable full time.

LonesomeFugitive · #7 10-01-2007, 11:58 AM

You're embarrased because you have 12k in life savings at age 23? geez! if that makes you embarrased what does it make me having no savings at age 24

hra146 · #8 10-01-2007, 12:00 PM

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You're embarrased because you have 12k in life savings at age 23? geez! if that makes you embarrased what does it make me having no savings at age 24

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suicidal?

Gildwulf · #9 10-01-2007, 12:04 PM

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You're embarrased because you have 12k in life savings at age 23? geez! if that makes you embarrased what does it make me having no savings at age 24

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yes but his 12k in life savings at age 23 is very close to having no savings at age 24

PerDoom · #10 10-01-2007, 11:21 AM

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thank me later, but dont put in massive amounts of hands. play 1-2 tables and focus on decisions.

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i'll just second this. if you want to continue being a 1/2 grinder for the rest of your life play a massive amount of tables, but just playing a few tables will almost certainly make you a better player and probably a little saner.