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[Ignignokt]

Absolutely. It doesn't sound like you're cut out for poker.

Money management is a real problem for most people with steady day jobs, much less poker players, and money management is critical for poker.

Ask 100 poker-playing college students if they're capable of managing their money and dealing with downswings, and 99 of them will look at you like you're insane, of course they are. It's something they have to discover on their own.

A hard lesson, but a good one, on the fragility of success.

I wish you luck and success. It's a big world out there; poker is a grain of sand on the beach.