Check/Mucking the Nuts

[Budget Boy]

OP, I think you would benefit from talking to a mental health professional. The behavior you're describing goes beyond playing bad poker. It's a truly bizarre, irrational response to flopping a nice hand. What you describe is like taking money out of your wallet and setting it on fire, or cooking yourself a nice dinner then throwing it on the floor instead of eating it. Have you had other strange/inappropriate reactions to normal situations?