anybody else frantically chasing supernova?

[keepitreal]

i spent the early part of the year not playing cash aka not banking VPPs. now im close enough to supernova that i gotta go for it but am gonna hate my life in decemeber doing it. im at 74k and play 50NL and lots of tables (was 12 and now its 20+). on a "long" day, i make 1k VPP.

basically family time for thanksgiving and xmas really limits me and i know im killing my BB/hour but think its damn worth it to be supernova in 2008 for the FPPs and to be able to buy the $1500 bonus for 100k FPPs.

my reason for the post is this:
im just not starting to wonder if it really is worth it. i time out more than i'd like and cant always think. i'm playing 60BBs instead of the normal 100BB to make decisions easier but im still not always able to make the optimal decision. plus i end up with over full BI stacks after a double and then have to worry about more money with each decision...

plus, socially, i'll be giving up a fun weekend or two in the coming month and my eyes will hurt a lot.

thoughts/comments/concerns/hate filled rants all welcome.