This just means a lot to me I hope you can help

[TheGame232]

Hallo guys.

When I first found this forum I was very impressed by the knowledge and the experience of its users und so I have this last hope that you can help me.

When I fist started to play poker I was totally hooked and motivated to learn every aspect of this game. So I tryed my best, (expecting nothing), but winning a lot.

I also became addicted to the pokervids on you tube and pokertube (I really believe I wathced at least 90% availible) and Hsp even 2-3 times.

But unfortunatelly i cant handle money, I never had a seriouse Bankrollmanagement, and whenever I won I gave the money away playing Roulett,Blackjack,poker in higher limits, buying things I dont need and giving my money away.

You guys would never believe what I tryed to disceplin myself (talking to myself, reading artikles about Bankroull management, even meditation!)

But it all failed to succeed. In the last 6 months I went broke 8 times! and everytime I went broke It was hurting so much becouse poker is my everything. I have no girlfriend, not much friends and only work 20h a month. So I am constantly alone in my appartment with my computer and when I have poker in my life i am so happy but when its gone I feel depressed.

My main weakness is that I try to get what i lost in a session back throu playing in higher limits, Blackjack or Roulett. That always destroyed my bankroll and I AM AWARE OF IT.

But THATS the unbelievible Thing: even though I knowe it I still do it!

I hope you guys can share your experiences with me and give me an advice.

Thanks in advance for your help
and for the love to this Game

[chesspain]

1-800-GAMBLER

[threeplusthree]

^^^

hehe, but seriously make use of the deposit limits if you must or alternatively it may be degrading and humiliating but just self exclude yourself and play play chips. When I go on tilt I switch to play chips and you can still play poker, still go all in with rags BECAUSE you are pissed or trying to chase losses. But lose no more than you can afford.

Seriously poker isn't a race to get to the highest limits possible in the quickest time.

Theres more to life than poker

[pshady]

"You guys would never believe what I tryed to disceplin myself (talking to myself, reading artikles about Bankroull management, even meditation!)"

why would we never believe that? reading about bankroll managemnet is good and meditation I believe teaches you about patience, which you NEED and are lacking. keep reading up on it and do what they say until you see yourself winning again consistently since your way of br managemnet is just f$#cked...

[TheGame232]

I really almost read every article I found on cardplayer about Bankrollmanagement, but it seems like in the heat of the moment I forget about everything I learned, wrote down or told myself - I could be up 300$ for the day if I somehow manage to loose 100$ back I tilt so hard that I blow throu my whole rolle, its scary. very often I t works and I accumulate a lot of money but in the end it all goes back in a few mouseklicks. But this has nothing to do with my skillevel ( I made the donkeytest-128 points) I can play 1$2$ and 2$4$ short handed Nl Holdem profitable: but I cant stand grinding the 0,25$0,50$ levels it seems so boring and unprofitable so my Bankrollmanagement is bad right from the point where i deposit

[garcia1000]

Quitting poker and all gambling would be the most +EV thing for you to do.

[luckyjimm]

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I could be up 300$ for the day if I somehow manage to loose 100$ back I tilt so hard that I blow throu my whole roll

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Me too!

Yes it's scary when this happens. You get upset that you're not winning as much as you had been, you feel really sour, bitter and angry, and so you throw away all the rest of your money!

I was really pissed off this morning at losing $100 to a bad beat, so I went and lost another $350 in ten minutes just because I was angry!!