sorry and i'm alive

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this was in response to Mat's email and thread I'm not going to post it in the lounge.


I am not dead and I apologize for causing anyone to worry. I feel very regretful and guilty for disappearing. I felt like I was drowning, everything was seeming to go wrong and I got scared and just left everyone. I am now trying to get my life put back together. I want to make everything right but I need to get a lot of things cleaned up and straightened out and it is taking a lot of hard work. Part of that was getting away from my environment including my family, other influences, poker, the internet and even 2p2 so I can focus on making good choices and doing something with my life. I am very very sorry that I let so many people down who were incredibly supportive and kind to me. While I have problems, problems I am working there are no excuses. I won't ask for forgiveness only time and a little understanding.

good luck and best wishes to you all.

[C]