Open shoving retarded hands while on tilt

[Black winter day]

This started happening to me very frequently recently.
Bad bluff here, bad beat there, bad call, AA gets murdered by a set, while i don't flop sets at all or when i do, everyone folds and i start to tilt...The usual.

I used to be able to shake it off, like throwing that Stars or FTP stress ball at the wall, punch my pillow, shout something, walk it off etc.

But lately i just start shoving allin preflop like a retard.
It obviously costs me money even though i recently destroyed some dude twice with Arag against his big PP.

Wtf is going on?
Did i make too much money already that i don't care anymore about losing 1-2 buyins? (i play Nl500 currently and made over 150k overall.I withdrew like a 100k, but my online br is still very healthy).

Or is that i know i will get it back tomorrow or very soon anyway by grinding hard?
Makes it look almost like a "no consequences" mistake.

I really really want to make it stop, even though by now i have developed such crazy image, i could probably play like a nit for a month and get payed off a lot.

Anyone has similar experiences?
Anyone learned how to shake it off?

Thanks.