If you are feeling bad about yourself, read this

[Quicksilvre]

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Serious response:

It's possible that you suffer from depression, or have some other type of affliction. You should really see a doctor and get checked out. It sounds like you want to do things, but just have a hard time when it comes to the actual doing.

Good luck pal.

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I was halfway thinking this myself. A depression screening might not be a bad idea.