Why Do I Do This to Myself?

[ThePeanutFlush]

Thanks for all the input guys. I don't feel as if I can't help myself; I just am not sure how just yet. I am stressed about college, but I have good self-esteem (not a school outcast, fat or lazy). And I'm definately not an action junkie, I don't mind playing micros at all ,in fact grinding fits me pretty well. Oh, and just to add, I do currently have a job at brookstone.

[Al Mirpuri]

You are good enough to play higher. Your bankroll does not support that. However, your subconscious rebels and every now and again gets the better of your conscious rational mind. Get some kind of means to give you a bankroll or give up playing the micro limits altogether. Me? I got a job and play bigger and more profitably then ever before...

[ThePeanutFlush]

Well, Brookstone pays 7$/hour, but I have to pay for gas, college (Soon), insurance, phone, etc. Any suggestions on saving/getting some scratch together to get a decent BR?

[ThePeanutFlush]

Would anyone like so see some of my hands from .5/.10 and then some from 1/2$?

[DING-DONG YO]

OP, I'm 30 and have the same problem

It is harder to control than you realize. I still have those "playing out of body" type sessions where I can't seem to quit. The difference is I have them much more infrequently now. My goal is to stop having them altogether.

What it comes right down to is that you, like 95% of the posters here , whether they admit it or not, have a compulsive gambler in you. The challenge is learning to control it to the point where it almost doesn't exist anymore.

[sawseech]

maybe you shouldn't allow yourself to be emotionally disturbed by a $10 loss.

[SplawnDarts]

[ QUOTE ]
OP, I'm 30 and have the same problem

It is harder to control than you realize. I still have those "playing out of body" type sessions where I can't seem to quit. The difference is I have them much more infrequently now. My goal is to stop having them altogether.

What it comes right down to is that you, like 95% of the posters here , whether they admit it or not, have a compulsive gambler in you. The challenge is learning to control it to the point where it almost doesn't exist anymore.

[/ QUOTE ]

Some gamble is good, though. Everyone I know who made it big in poker had more gamble in them than logic might say was best. I for one don't think the kid made a mistake by taking a shot at 1/2. It just didn't work out. He's obviously sharp and analytical, so he just needs to get a little experience under his belt and try again. Going micro-bust a few times in college beats the hell out of doing it in your 30s.

BTW, I'd be glad to look at a few key 1/2 hands that got you broke.

[ThePeanutFlush]

[ QUOTE ]
maybe you shouldn't allow yourself to be emotionally disturbed by a $10 loss.

[/ QUOTE ]

I wasn't so much disturbed as just felt a need to get it back in quick fashion.

EDIT: I'll go ahead and post a few key hands that I played.

[ThePeanutFlush]

Heres a couple hands that make me sick now...
Full Tilt Poker Game #1523825584: Table Wilkes - $0.25/$0.50 - No Limit
Hold'em - 5:12:57 ET - 2007/01/03
Seat 1: Scootergfunk ($49.80)
Seat 3: crazyyang ($35.15)
Seat 4: sneakysquirrel ($48)
Seat 5: Thepeanutflush ($56.35)
Seat 6: cajunredhead ($23.25)
Seat 8: lakerchmps2k ($77.80)
Seat 9: stilts2112 ($13.45)
crazyyang posts the small blind of $0.25
sneakysquirrel posts the big blind of $0.50
The button is in seat #1
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Thepeanutflush [Ad Kh]
Thepeanutflush raises to $1.75
cajunredhead calls $1.75
lakerchmps2k folds
stilts2112 calls $1.75
Scootergfunk folds
crazyyang folds
sneakysquirrel folds
*** FLOP *** [Tc 6s 7h]
Thepeanutflush bets $5
cajunredhead folds
stilts2112 raises to $11.70, and is all in
Thepeanutflush calls $6.70
stilts2112 shows [Td Qd]
Thepeanutflush shows [Ad Kh]
*** TURN *** [Tc 6s 7h] [Js]
*** RIVER *** [Tc 6s 7h Js] [5c]
stilts2112 shows a pair of Tens
Thepeanutflush shows Ace King high
stilts2112 wins the pot ($27.95) with a pair of Tens
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $29.40 | Rake $1.45
Board: [Tc 6s 7h Js 5c]
Seat 1: Scootergfunk (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: crazyyang (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 4: sneakysquirrel (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 5: Thepeanutflush showed [Ad Kh] and lost with Ace King high
Seat 6: cajunredhead folded on the Flop
Seat 8: lakerchmps2k didn't bet (folded)
Seat 9: stilts2112 showed [Td Qd] and won ($27.95) with a pair of Tens


Full Tilt Poker Game #1523841323: Table Wilkes - $0.25/$0.50 - No Limit
Hold'em - 5:20:36 ET - 2007/01/03
Seat 1: Scootergfunk ($49.30)
Seat 2: ricechinksta ($23.50)
Seat 3: crazyyang ($39.40)
Seat 4: graham123 ($45)
Seat 5: Thepeanutflush ($18.20)
Seat 6: cajunredhead ($16.75)
Seat 7: waymore34 ($19.25)
Seat 8: lakerchmps2k ($66.50)
Seat 9: stilts2112 ($58.95)
stilts2112 posts the small blind of $0.25
lakerchmps2k: of course
Scootergfunk posts the big blind of $0.50
graham123 posts $0.50
The button is in seat #8
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Thepeanutflush [9s Ad]
crazyyang: haha
ricechinksta folds
crazyyang calls $0.50
graham123 checks
stilts2112: Q 9?
Thepeanutflush calls $0.50
lakerchmps2k: yup
crazyyang: that sucks
cajunredhead calls $0.50
waymore34 folds
lakerchmps2k folds
stilts2112 calls $0.25
Scootergfunk checks
*** FLOP *** [9h 4h 7h]
stilts2112: i figured
crazyyang: i still had alot of outs on the turn
stilts2112 checks
crazyyang: maybe all in would have gotten me to fold
crazyyang: 6 dollars more wouldn't have done it
Scootergfunk has 15 seconds left to act
Scootergfunk checks
crazyyang checks
graham123 checks
Thepeanutflush bets $1.50
cajunredhead calls $1.50
stilts2112 folds
Scootergfunk calls $1.50
crazyyang folds
graham123 folds
*** TURN *** [9h 4h 7h] [8d]
Scootergfunk checks
Thepeanutflush bets $7.50
cajunredhead raises to $14.75, and is all in
Scootergfunk folds
Thepeanutflush calls $7.25
cajunredhead shows [Th 8h]
Thepeanutflush shows [9s Ad]
lakerchmps2k: its not ur fault
*** RIVER *** [9h 4h 7h 8d] [Ac]
cajunredhead shows a flush, Ten high
Thepeanutflush shows two pair, Aces and Nines
cajunredhead wins the pot ($35.15) with a flush, Ten high
lakerchmps2k: just the cards
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $37 | Rake $1.85


Full Tilt Poker Game #1523851716: Table Wilkes - $0.25/$0.50 - No Limit
Hold'em - 5:25:43 ET - 2007/01/03
Seat 1: Scootergfunk ($44.80)
Seat 2: ricechinksta ($20.75)
Seat 4: graham123 ($48.55)
Seat 5: Thepeanutflush ($20.95)
Seat 6: cajunredhead ($35.15)
Seat 7: waymore34 ($26.25)
Seat 8: lakerchmps2k ($66.50)
Seat 9: stilts2112 ($62.35)
Thepeanutflush posts the small blind of $0.25
cajunredhead posts the big blind of $0.50
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Thepeanutflush [7h Jc]
waymore34 folds
lakerchmps2k folds
stilts2112 folds
Scootergfunk folds
ricechinksta folds
graham123 calls $0.50
Thepeanutflush raises to $2
cajunredhead folds
graham123 calls $1.50
*** FLOP *** [6c Tc 8c]
Thepeanutflush bets $4.50
graham123 raises to $18
Thepeanutflush raises to $18.95, and is all in
graham123 calls $0.95
Thepeanutflush shows [7h Jc]
graham123 shows [9s 7s]
*** TURN *** [6c Tc 8c] [Qd]
*** RIVER *** [6c Tc 8c Qd] [4h]
Thepeanutflush shows Queen Jack high
graham123 shows a straight, Ten high
graham123 wins the pot ($40.30) with a straight, Ten high
Thepeanutflush is sitting out
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $42.40 | Rake $2.10

[ThePeanutFlush]

These are the only hands that I feel I played truly horribly, there were others I played very well but they are saved on another computer. I will try to find these; as they are the hands that I would really like advice on.