Beat: My Life

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Ive never talked about this before.

When i was 19 i gave very serious consideration to ending my life - i had researched the best ways, i had my plans set out and if i had woke up in a different mood one of those days i wouldnt be here now - i dont really want to go into details but i never saw my friends, many times i struggled to pay bills and i was circling the drain many times.

Eventually i decided as crap as life was i could turn it around - i made several excuses and moved back with my parents and over the last 4 years ive been working at improving my life, ive cleared my debts, im improving at poker which is my passion and pays the bills and im working on some business ideas.

My point is, life can seem as crappy and worthless as you can get, and there is ALWAYS a way to turn it around. I dont know you Lurker, and i dunno what your problems are, but there are people who care for you im sure and whatever your going through it is not worth killing yourself over.

Like others have said, ending your life is a permanent decision. Anything i or anyone else says here wont suddently make you think "wow, they are so correct, life is right", but just take more time before you commit suicide. Tomorrow is another day, next month is another month and next year is another year.

Find someone to sit down and talk everything through. Why are you thinking this, what went wrong, what options there are outside of ending your life. Do not rush into this - as much as you may think youve thought it through, you really havent.