A Public Admission

[ewile]

So, the truth of the matter is that in a year, from August to August, nearly 100K hands of play at limits ranging from .25/.50 to 3/6, full and more recently shorthanded I've lost 100 bucks at actual poker play. Not real good reward for the hours that I've spent. With a little rakeback from UB and a couple of bonuses from Stars I guess I'm up a bit. But still not enough to justify my time.

Man I miss the old days. I started playing in 2000 for play money and for cash on Planet Poker in 2001. (Shrink are you still grinding away?) I actually remember playing poker on planet on the night of 9/11 in total shock. I made some good cash for a hobby. Bonus whoring was sick. Interpoker was giving away like 200 dollars a month or something, Caribbean Sun every month, just hitting all the Crypto Skins each month was good coin. Then there was Party. Monthly reloads, and for a couple of years there the 2/4 full was a goldmine.I MISS YOU PARTY POKER.

My poker hobby paid for 6 trips to Vegas, one real nice Weber BBQ, lots of bills, sick dinners for me and my wife and lots of fun stuff that I would not have otherwise been able to do.

I'm glad this is not an I went busto thread. My roll is still an ample $2,500. My initial buy in back in the day was $75, so it's been a great ride. But it's seriously time to reevaluate. I'm a 40 year old gut with a good profession, 2 kids and several other hobbies that I enjoy so I'm not in a position to really put a whole lot more effort into my game. I rip up the live games up to 5/10 in Vegas and AC but the truth is that as far as the competition on the net, I'm not great. Perhaps not even good.

Another truth is that it would be really difficult to quit. You know, the inner degenerate is tough to let go of. My inclination is to seriously limit my play to 1 hour per night, and drop to .25/.50 and try to do bankroll building again. Frankly this sucks, the Poker boom, at least for me is over and it's sad to face that reality.

Thanks for your time.