What have I done ? 2/3 of my Bankroll gone

I live in Venezuela, and the company I worked for 8 years went bankrupt sept. last year and I`m still in a lawsuit for the money they own me. I have a wife and 2 kids 5years and 11 years old. Since then I was doing little jobs here and there, and started to play online poker with 17$ and started grinding. I have cashed out a couple of thousand of dollars, and finnaly moved upto 100NL last month with a Bankroll of 3000$. Recently I had some pretty big problems, since I do a service maintanance of anchoring gear to sailing yachts, and a bunch of materials got stolen. My father got diagnosed with cancer, and doctors gave him about 1 year to live. So I cashed out about 2000$ to solve the problems mentioned above. I was doing ok at 100NL, running at about 4bb/100. I occasionaly tilted a bit, but I was always in control and could stop, before it`s was to late. Now, beginning of august with a Bankroll of 2400$ I had to drop down to 50NL due to the cashouts. But since I need money fast to visit my Parents, I was really pushing myself, logging between 5k to 10k hands daily. To make a long story short, yesterday I did some good table selection and found these two fish with 92/33/3 and 80/14/2 stats respectively. On both tables I lost about 5BI to them due to horrible suckouts, before they lost their stacks to other regulars at the tables. For some reason this totally tilted me and I dropped a bunch of buyins more playing 30/18 stats instead of my usual 19/13. before quitting. In the afternoon I noticed that PStars opened new HU tables and still tilting from the morning I opened up 2 and totally tilted of 10BI.

IMO the main reason for this tilt was for pushing myself to much and trying desperately to recover the money lost.

My family was depending on the 1500$ (avg. salary here is 250$, so don`t laugh) or so I made monthly. And now I only have 700$ left and have to grind back up from 25NL.

Sry for the horrible grammar, and sry for the whining.