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Thinking about the future
Nothing like a 3 month breakeven stretch to make you stand back and look at what went wrong.
Here is my year in review: Jan - Feb I don't play too much online because I haven't figured out a way to cashout from the site I am playing at. I put in maybe 100 hrs at live 40/80 and win a decent amount. For these 2 months I win about 15k which is fine. March - early April is huge. I have one 20k week in there, and around 40k for the month. Naturally, I am feeling fine. April, May, June. Nothing. It's an awful, horrible breakeven stretch (I get lots of rakeback, so to be breakeven w/ that means i am losing a LOT). Getting rivered every hand, having every opponent's turn c-r semibluff hitting and all that stuff leads to probably deterioration in my game. I start playing a lot of hands, and I start tilting pretty constantly. I don't play too bad when I tilt, I just don't play my best. Which is about breakeven poker. So I go through this period in a constant haze of tilt (at the tables and away as well) July Have one of my first winning days in what feels like 3 weeks, and it's a big one. In the morning I play 200 hands online and win 5k, then I go to bay101 for my first live session in 2 months and win another 5k. Now since then (over a week ago) I have hardly played. I will play microstakes NL for like 3 hours or something, its pathetic. I've also been trying to play at AP these last few weeks. In June I had some friends xfer me 6.5k and I lost it all at 5/10 - 25/50. I've paid 2.5k of it back, and I got another $500 to work with. So these last few weeks I was playing my ass off at 3/6 and just not getting ANYWHERE. If I thought that breaking even at my normal stakes was defeating, doing the same while trying hard at AP 3/6 was soul crushing Anyway, the site that I was playing at is dying. limit holdem has ceased to be profitable. I am looking at other sites, and it seems there are still some goldmines available, but for how long? It seems that pretty soon limit holdem everywhere will become fishless. Live play is still amazing of course. I am planning on trying to incorporate a new routine of playing live a few days every week, but will this be enough? Can I make decent money being a live pro? I used to say that I would never consider playing live for a living, but now I am seriously reconsidering. I am also trying NL, but really, I hate it. I don't know, it just feels like starting over, and I don't want to start over. Anyway, I am pretty much just venting here. I am 27 years old and I don't have any work experience. I have enough saved to last me for a while, but it's not like I can retire on it. I was always hoping that I could keep up poker for another 5-10 years and then be set, but I'm feeling more and more like this is not gonna happen. I guess I'm wondering if I have to make a choice, to either switch to online NL or live limit? ANyway If anyone wants to offer some advice that's cool, but yeah, I'm just hating poker, and I wish things could go back to the way they used to be. |
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