While we're on the subject of alcohol.....

[NicksDad1970]

Like I said I quit drinking about 6 1/2 years ago after my drinking got progressivly got worse to the point of drinking a 12 pack + per night. One of my biggest reasons was not wanting it to become part of my sons life like it was mine. I can still remember being 6 years old and my job was to hand my dad the beers from the cooler in the back seat of the car. We'd be driving cross country and he'd constantly drink. My mom would give him the lil airplane bottles of vodka so he could put it in his oj for breakfast.

My dad would give me sips of his beer when I was that age. The first time I gor real drunk I got busted. I was in the 5th grade. The messed up part of it was I didn't really get in any trouble. My mom was as naive as they come. When I was 13 my mom picked us up from the mall and she said we smelled like whiskey. I just told her some old guy spilled some on me. Yes it was that easy. She used to buy me chewing tobacco at the store every week because I told her it was candy.

Anyway I knew at some point I was going to quit. I just didn't know what I was going to do with myself after work if I wasn't drinking. I knew I didn't need any help. I didn't believe I was like chemically or physically addicted. Just that it was something I did every day.

As a side note I have a real addictive and very strong personality. I feel like Paul Waskia in the sense that he says he does something all out or not at all. I just happened to do it all on bad things [img]/images/graemlins/smile.gif[/img]

Anyway so I wake up one morning and said that's it I'm never drinking again. Everyone that knew me just KNEW I was FOS. Noone hardly saw me w/o a beer. Heck I was allowed to drink at work (after 5 when the dront office left)

So that was it 6 1/2 years later. I've sat and cried thinking about how glad I havn't made that a part of my sons life. He's only 10 and who knows what the fuure brings but I've done something to put him in the right direction. I started talking to him about alchol and drugs when he was 4. I hope to lead him in the right direction.

Ok, so here's where the scary contradictions come in.

As some of you may or may not remember about me is I'm having some real marriage problems. I won't really bore you with all the details. But with all these problems sometimes I just feel like slamming some down. In all honesty I feel like the reality of that is like less that 1%. But it's really weird. With all that I've done as far as that's concerned that something like that would even enter my mind.

Wow, what trying times we all face.

Anyway I have left so much out that, like I said, I don't want to bore you all with but maybe I will have to fill in some of the gaps.

I need a vacation [img]/images/graemlins/smile.gif[/img]