Life Tilt... (tl;dr - pics/graph)

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I've been playing poker recreationally for a little over 4 years now. I started with 1-5 stud live at a casino in Mississippi with my cousin. That night I quickly burned $100 and was hooked. I continued playing live for the next 2 or so years as I had time. I started playing 4/8 limit HE then 10/20 and then I found NL. Read all the books, studied the game and got pretty good for a hobby. I am very fortunate to have found a career in the real estate field that has provided a very nice 6 figure income for over 9 years now. So money is no problem at all. I am quite a tight wad though so I never played any higher than 1/2 NL. I always made money in live games. It was just easy. I seem to have a good BS detector. Then good ‘ol TV tourneys get popular and I see sick monies being dropped in some random douche bag’s lap over and over again. The dream is born. I quickly discover online poker and MTTs. I proceed to spend most of my spare time playing online tourneys and run pretty goot…



After I won the Sunday Million I decide that maybe my luck would hold out for some kind of cash at the 2006 WSOP. So I play a couple of WSOP ME satellites. I win the second one and plan my trip. I take $10K in cash and plan to spend about a month in Vegas through the WSOP ME. I enter 4 different prelim events and get donked out the first day in every one of them. Since I couldn’t seem to last in any of the events I had a ton of spare time on my hands. As crazy as this sounds I didn’t do any hookers, blow, strip clubs, or any of the fun stuff Vegas is known for other than gamble, of course. BTW… I have a beautiful wife and a 2 yr old son. Thriving business, friends, family, etc… Those things didn’t appeal to me much. However, I did play live 1/2 and 2/5 NL HE for about 18 to 20 hours a day. I loved it and quickly discovered hard core monkey TILT!!! It was live action so the humiliation factor kept me from going over board. The WSOP ME was no different than the prelims. I hit the rail 9 hours in when some donkey hit a 3 outer on the river, AI on flop. Long story short, I sucked in the WSOP but made up for it in live action. Left the house with $10K, wasted $7,500 in WSOP prelims, lived in Vegas for a month, and came home with $12K. Not so bad? At this point I love NL cash games but I am still a cheap a$#. Shortly after getting home I decide I am going to grind up a BR for high stakes online in my spare time. LOL!!!



Without going into too much detail when I got home life just wasn’t the same and my marriage was really going down hill. I only kept $1K online after the big win and started grinding it. My BR mgmt skills sucked and I had absolutely no respect for the money I was playing for. With nothing but a computer monitor to keep me accountable and my marriage being in the toilet I played like crap. Around hand 35K my wife and I separated and full blown monkey tilt took over. I went busto and having no money online and an F’ed up life I stopped playing. I now have not played in 2.5 months. Thank God I have a real job and never got so delusional that I tried to play for a living. Although, as soon as I get my head straight, I will be back! And I will take your monies!

Any suggestions? What it do BBV???