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First weekend off - Feeling good.
Well I've played every weekend since '07 began. That's 16 straight weekends of casino life. I'm graduating in three weeks and decided it'd be a good idea to spend a weekend at home, getting ready to move, making sure everything is ready for class finals, tying up loose ends. Can't say I wasn't nervous. Going to a casino on the weekend has become a staple of my life. So it's only natural that breaking this cycle would make me uneasy.
Typically, I leave thursday afternoons somewhere between 5-12pm. I put in a long session and crash and come home Saturday night or Sunday mornings. I was ready to leave (although not really excited) and invited my friend Briana over just to hang out before I left. She ended up staying for around 12 hours. I kept telling myself I'd leave once she left and with it now being 9am I doubt I ever will. I have to shamelessly admit it was hard to not leave. I couldn't think of a reason to go but I also couldn't think of a reason not to go. It has become so nonchalant that I don't even consider not going. I'm proud of myself though. This was something that I always told myself I could do although everytime I told people I wasn't going I ended up at the tables. I'm happy I'm doing this even if deep down I wish I was playing. The weekend isn't over and who knows if I'll crack and drive down in the middle of Saturday night. I won't hate myself if I do. I do think however that this is something every consistent poker player should try. It will tell you a lot about how addicted you truly are (even if you tell others and yourself that you aren't.) It's a lot harder than I imagined, mostly because I'm unsure of what to do with all this free time. I'll let you guys know if I succeed if you're at all interested. I can only see good things coming of this. Just a rant and a brag, sorry if it was purely self-serving. |
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