Why do I do what it is I do?

[casey_brick]

So I've got two 1/2 limit tables open yesterday and I'm just cruisin along. Right in the middle of decent session, which for me is like 5/100 BB, I just space out. I started thinking "WTF am I doing".

I started playing poker for the fun and the gamble. Now I'm sitting at 2 limit tables grinding it out, for what?

I've been playing less and less poker lately. I know I have a lot more to learn about the game and there's lots of room for me to improve. I still have to ask myself at the end of the day what does poker do for me.

Is it just good way to kill time and make a couple bucks? Or could I really buckle down and deal with the grind and make a living at this in a couple years?

Thoughts comments and advice all welcome.