OT: Sick story of going broke - not getting staked - working up

[Hercules]

Posted this already in the wiggs thread (scamming etc...). But since it is so sic it might make a OT thread.


Ok maybe its time to post a little story.
One month ago i was almost going to ask to be staked. WHY?

Ok i am not going to make a joke, its to sad to be a joke.
About 1 and a half month ago, a neighbour came to me and wanted to see me play poker. It was in the mid of the night, i was tired., so i told him that i wont play for real money. So i sat down at the 10/20 play money tables. I did stupid stuff, played over aggro and soon i had over 20k on my 4 tables. Ok, i was bored and wanted to stop. So i went all in every hand. I was surprised that i didnt get called to often. But finally i lost everything, had fun and went to bed.
Next morning i woke up and wanted to play my usual games. I looked into cashier...and WTF WTF WTF!!!! 3,34$ were left. I had wild scaming theories, but finally i caught what happened. Like a bomb the question from my friend came into my mind. "how do you know that it is play money"? Ok you guys prolly get what happened. I lost all of my money. I had almost every cent on pokerstars...Loosing like 20k in one night is not nice. I can tell you that.
I was shocked. But i said to myself: no i wanna see whats in you. I wanna see that you can handle this and fight yourself back up.
I thought much about asking to be staked. But on the other hand i didn`t know anybody good enough to ask for something like that. So took like the last 600$ in cash, and put in on stars. I played 16$ SNG`s to built up a decent roll. For all guys who saw me grinding the 16s and messing with the god spacegravy, that is the reason. After i had a decent roll, i began to play multis again.I can tell you something. It is hard to play lower levels, if you`re broke and try to come back, because the money you are playing for doesnt have a real meaning.
So whatever, i also coached a newbie at the same time and earned 500$ of his winnings in the first weeks.
Anyways, i changed my attitude to the game. Although it was really hard for me to make my ballsy plays with the bankroll, i still did it. Still followed my guts, if i felt somebody was week.
Fwiw, last month was my best month ever. It was like a break through. I found resources and made plays, which i would have never been able to make before.
I took poker more serious and as i said, everything`s fine and people on my right say that they`ve got the worst seat in the tourney [img]/images/graemlins/smile.gif[/img]
Ok, thats it. To all people who said "begining at the bottom when broke and work yourself up":
You guys dont even know how damn right you are.

There are definitely merits in staking, but i know how much power it gave me to take all what i had left, fight for it and not playing like a pussy with it.