list of the big pots I lost--for my sake, not yours

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Last year about this time I had a streak like this, except not quite as bad. Making this post then made me feel better, and eventually it came around. Here are all the pots I lost sorted by number of big bets in PT. All limit hold em. Starting at 30-60, but worked down to 10-20 to easy the pain/ calm my stomach. This is in about 6,000 hands.

88 vs AA, K 4 A 8 J -9.5
AdAc vs KK, 4d 5d 5s 8s ks -7.5 (I flat called his river raise--I already knew I couldn't win.)
Kh Jk vs 44, Tc Jc Js 4c 5d, -7.5
Td 8h vs Kc6c (and 99), Qc 9d Jc 2s 5c, -7
AK vs AQ, A 2 J Q 9, -7
66 vs 99, T 9 6 2 K (this was the second hand of day 2)
A9 vs A3, 3 3 3 9 6, -6.5
QcJc vs Kc2c, Tc 6c 7s 9s Ac (this was 5th hand of day2)
JT vs 99, Q 9 K K 2, -6.5
KK vs AA, 4 5 J 9 T, -6.5
QcQs vs AcKc, T J Q 5 7, -6.5
JdTd vs Ad3d, 5d Qd 3h As 2d, -6.5
JJ vs AQ, J A Q 8 Q, -6.5
A7 vs 55, J A 3 3 5, -6.5
AcAs vs 9c7c, 6c 8c 2s 6h Kc, -6.5
55 vs QhJh, 9c 5d 4h Ah 7h, -6.5
JT vs KJ, Th 8s Qd 9s 3d, -6.5
AA vs A9, Qs 3h 9s 9h 6c, -6.5
QQ vs J9, J 9 6 4 5, -6
T9 vs QT, T 7 K 8 T, -6 (dominated doesn't work)
QT vs JT, T 7 J T 5, -6 (dominating doesn't work either)
K8 vs J4, K J 2 4 7, -6
TT vs QJ, 2 8 J J 5, -6
Q7 vs 9hTh, 6s 5h 4c 8h 6h, -6
AK vs T6, T A 3 T 5, -6
KK vs JJ, 4 4 J 6 5, -6
KT vs AK, 9 K 4 6 2, -6
Ah8h vs AA, 9h 3h Ks 6c 9d, -6
TsTd vs 3h3d, 6c 3c 5c 7h Qs, -6
KQ vs 77, K 6 3 7 A, -6
KK vs TT, 2 T 3 5 A, -6
KT vs AT, T A 3 K 3, -6
Kc9c vs Ah2d, Qs 2c Ac 4s 6d, -5.5
AK vs A2, 5 5 3 Q 2, -5.5
99 vs QQ, 7 7 T A 3, -5.5
AQ vs 55, Q 7 K 8 5, -5.5
AK vs 54, A 6 5 3 4, -5.5
9h7d vs 7h5h, 6h Ah Qh 5c 8d, -5.5 (1 bet on flop, no bets on turn)
QQ vs 55, 7 4 6 A 8, -5.5
A9 vs QJ, 9 Q 8 2 6, -5.5
Q9 vs 86, 8 6 9 4 7, -5.5
TT vs KK, J 5 7 9 9, -5.5
AJ vs QJ, 9 7 T 8 T, -5.5
AQ vs 55, T 5 Q K 6, -5.5
AQ vs KK, 3 5 4 4 7, -5.5
TT vs AA, K 7 4 8 3, -5.5
AJ vs 66, 3 J 6 5 J, -5.5
AT vs A8, 5 8 8 A J, -5.5
AK vs 77, 9 7 3 K T, -5.5
QT vs A7, T 7 7 9 J, -5.5
99 vs AA, 2 5 4 5 T, -5.5
A7 vs A8, A K A 6 2, -5.5
AQ vs AK (and A8) 6 7 Q J T, -5
AT vs KcTc, Ac 8s Jc 7c 9h, -5
AJ vs Q5, 5 8 J 5 T, -5
TT vs 97, 9 7 6 5 4, -5
QQ vs AsJd, 7s 3s Th 9s 5s, -5
AT vs T8, 3 T 5 Q 8, -5

I could go on, but the rules are easy to extract. If the board is paired, I lose. They have it every time. Every time I show down A-hi, they check-raise bottom pair on the turn. Every time I show down 2nd pair, I get annihilated. I can't understand how these events can cluster together. It is not hard suspect that it is rigged. Again and again and again and again.

And if anyone here is in any one of these hands, please know that from the bottom of my heart I hope your parents get cancer and your children get kidnapped.