Am i an addictive gambler?

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I am going through such a [censored] huge downswing rite now, my parents think im an addictive gambler. At pokerstars, over 19K hands at $10 NL im down $45 with AA, $24 with KK and $19 with AK everytime preflop i get it in with AQs, Q9o sucks out on me, and I have been loosing alot of money. My parents dont want me to play anymore, and i cant explain to them that i am in a huge downswing, they think I am a longterm looser. I asked myself the question, maybe im a loosing poker player, but in the past at crypto and FT i was up $1000 at $25 and $50 NL, and i am a pretty good player. Ive tried everything, including taking a break for a few weeks, coming back with 200$ and playing $10 NL properly rolled, but everytime i drop buyins off suckouts, take a break, come back and get sucked out on some more. I cant play on stars anymore because im premanently tilted there, and I need to explain to my parents why i have $44 in my bankaccounts. I need a new site to play at, and a new start to poker. Anyone got any tips?