Biggest downswing of my life

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Honestly 14 buyins isn't exactly the end of the world. IIRC you are massively overrolled too so the money is irrelevant, and don't be too harsh on yourself for not playing your A game or whatever, nobody's perfect, just do whatever you gotta do to make sure you're confident and playing well when you're on the tables in the near future and this will be a footnote in no time.

I play the same level as you and I've had 14 buyin or more downswings 5-6 times and they are incredibly irrelevant in the long term.