Blackjack kills me

[iFoldTheNuts]

I'm pretty good at poker. Started with next to nothing, worked my way up to 1K and got stuck on blackjack for a night and lost it all using the ol' martingale strategy. Not because I think it will work, but because I hate losing. Now I know blackjack is a game of chance much more than poker, but for some reason I think if I play every hand perfectly I should come out ahead even though I know thats wrong. I [censored] up 2 months worth of grinding in an hours worth of blackjack

I got my rakeback for that month and begin to slowly but surely rebuild my bankroll and again I get it up to nearly $1K. I get tempted into playing blackjack again and I actually start winning. I get up $150 before I totally [censored] up everything I worked for 2 months for by doubling my bet to break even each time I lose and blowing it all on a bad streak.

I know I should have never played blackjack, especially online where for all I know the software changes the cards according to my betting pattern. I feel miserable that I didn't learn my lesson the first time and now I have no money again til I get my rakeback.

I'm such an idiot and now I'll probably be grinding again at $10 sit n' goes for 2 more months to get my bankroll up to 1k. I now hate blackjack and vow never to EVER play that son'bitch again.

I just want to shoot myself now for being so stupid and trusting an online casino when it's me vs the house and blowing my poker bankroll TWICE when I know I have the skills to move up just not the money.

:Putsguntohead: