am i dumb?

[Popeye]

i read kriegers book, i read cappletti's (sp?) book, i have read the chapter in SS2, and i am now reading Ray Zee's book, but i still feel clueless when i play, i thought o8 was one of the simplest pokergames, i hate the fact about all the books i bought and that i'm still a crap player.
not only does this cost part of my bankroll, but also my emotional self-esteem, right now i feel like i will never become a good o8 player, and i feel like chit.
guess i'm just a dumbtruck hehe