I may be going crazy

[censored] · #1 05-01-2006, 02:13 AM

Today I was having a conversation with someone about journals, as I have recently begun keeping one. At one point, before I was going to give my thoughts on how a journal can act like pokertracker for life, I stopped and asked if we already had this conversation, which we hadn't. I then realized I most likely had this conversation in my head. I have many conversations in my head. Not with just myself but rather I bring in people I actually know, and I guess have what amounts to practice conversations. I have problems remembering which ones were actual conversations and which ones were practice. I have this problem alot.

I am also obsessive. I would like to add in stories from my past into my journal, about things like fighting, and fuc king and getting arrested but I can't because the fact that my journal would then not be in chronilogical order would bother me greatly.

I can't stop analyzing myself and my motives for everything I do. I also can't really concentrate on any, well anything but a damn girl I really need to not think about.

I would really like to get on some medication maybe, like prozac or riddilin or [censored] it maybe a combination of both.

Am I the only one?

Andrew Karpinski · #2 05-01-2006, 02:16 AM

I occasionally 'hear' what a friend would say if they were with me. This happens infrequently.

So no, we're both crazy.

diebitter · #3 05-01-2006, 02:16 AM

[censored] I love you man, but this is at the deep end now.

Go seek a professional to talk to about this, okay? You probably need to talk it through with someone who knows what they're talking about.

piiop · #4 05-01-2006, 02:17 AM

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I then realized I most likely had this conversation in my head. I have many conversations in my head. Not with just myself but rather I bring in people I actually know, and I guess have what amounts to practice conversations.

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I do this all the time.

Case Closed · #5 05-01-2006, 02:18 AM

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Am I the only one?

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No, I've been going though all of that for the past 5 months.

xorbie · #6 05-01-2006, 02:19 AM

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I can't stop analyzing myself and my motives for everything I do

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This sounds a LOT like me.

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I have many conversations in my head. Not with just myself but rather I bring in people I actually know, and I guess have what amounts to practice conversations.

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So does that.

Probably doesn't help any.

illeagle · #7 05-01-2006, 02:20 AM

Please don't start taking SSRI's.

moleman668 · #8 05-01-2006, 02:22 AM

I have practice conversations all the time

Jorge10 · #9 05-01-2006, 02:28 AM

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I can't stop analyzing myself and my motives for everything I do.

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Same here.

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I have many conversations in my head. Not with just myself but rather I bring in people I actually know, and I guess have what amounts to practice conversations. I have problems remembering which ones were actual conversations and which ones were practice. I have this problem alot.

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I dont have conversations in my head, but rather go through situations in my head. A teacher in a class once told me, I would never get violent if a racial situation came up because I go through the situations in my head. He was black by the way. So I figured I might as well consider different racial situations and go through the motions in my head about how to react without punching someone out or something. Well I think I do that too much now.

Stuey · #10 05-01-2006, 02:30 AM

Did I drive you crazy? Cuz I was trying. [img]/images/graemlins/grin.gif[/img]

Seriously though I have no clue but I doubt you are really crazy. Smart people just think they are since they get stuck trying to figure things out that can't be figured. I'm so happy I am dumb. Girls can't be figured so don't try just let her do what she wants with you and don't feel to bad when she is done it will be ok.