First weekend off - Feeling good.

[jkamowitz]

Well I've played every weekend since '07 began. That's 16 straight weekends of casino life. I'm graduating in three weeks and decided it'd be a good idea to spend a weekend at home, getting ready to move, making sure everything is ready for class finals, tying up loose ends. Can't say I wasn't nervous. Going to a casino on the weekend has become a staple of my life. So it's only natural that breaking this cycle would make me uneasy.

Typically, I leave thursday afternoons somewhere between 5-12pm. I put in a long session and crash and come home Saturday night or Sunday mornings. I was ready to leave (although not really excited) and invited my friend Briana over just to hang out before I left. She ended up staying for around 12 hours. I kept telling myself I'd leave once she left and with it now being 9am I doubt I ever will.

I have to shamefully admit it was hard to not leave. I couldn't think of a reason to go but I also couldn't think of a reason not to go. It has become so routine that I don't even consider not going.

I'm proud of myself though. This was something that I always told myself I could do although everytime I told people I wasn't going I ended up at the tables. I'm happy I'm doing this even if deep down I wish I was playing.

The weekend isn't over and who knows if I'll crack and drive down in the middle of Saturday night. I won't hate myself if I do. I do think however that this is something every consistent poker player should try. It will tell you a lot about how addicted you truly are (even if you tell others and yourself that you aren't.) It's a lot harder than I imagined, mostly because I'm unsure of what to do with all this free time.

I'll let you guys know if I succeed if you're at all interested. I can only see good things coming of this.

Just a rant and a brag, sorry if it was purely self-serving.

TT: Sorry if this is low-content, lock it if you must. I felt it important to tell people that whether or not you win or lose, if you're anything like me it's important to ask yourself every now and then if you can stop. Sorry if this is uninteresting or amateur.