[ACG2x]

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Perhaps you should seperate social life and professional poker in your mind.

What is wrong, with playing badly in a small game for fun at home with friends?

Are you really wanting your friends to be a significant 3rd income for you?

Seems to me, playing rather badly and having a laugh is probably a way to be sociable and have fun with ppl. Why feel guilty that you don't play your A game, and be a Stone-Killer with these people?

It's rational to tone it down in these games, you're not playing to make money in those games, you're playing for fun!

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The thing is, I don't know if I can seperate it. I have to be a Stone Killer all the time, or else I'm mad at myself. This is especially true when playing in home games. I can't bear the thought of anyone who would go busto in an hour in a casino game beating me for $10.

The money doesn't matter a bit to me, it's losing itself. I hate losing in poker, regardless of the stakes. I especially hate losing to inferior competition. They may be taking the game for fun, but I guarantee you someone at that table is thinking "[Insert random HG donk] never plays and just beat AC who plays all the time".

It sickens me to even think that might occur. Don't ask me why, it's like a switch I can't turn off.