[brian64]

It sounds like you are having trouble figuring out how you want poker to fit into your life. The good thing is that you still have all your options open. You haven't blown all your money, had your wife leave, lose your job, or anything like that.

There are several related areas of psychology that can help, anything from sports psychology to self-hypnosis or many other forms of self-help. Just go to a book store and find something that appeals to you. They share the same basic idea, which is to figure out a goal, make a plan to reach the goal, and then use some sort of behaviour modification to help stick with the plan. Maybe your goal should be to "make $x a month spending at most y hours playing poker". Maybe you want to become a poker pro. Only you know what the right goal for you is. The key is to understand WHY you want to reach the goal. What's the motivation? What would it mean to you to reach the goal? Once you figure it out, it usually isn't to hard to formulate a plan, and if you really understand the why, then you can stick to the plan.