[Lestat]

I mean no disrespect, but what I get from your post is that you're someone who NEEDS to believe in something. I suspect it's the result of your early religious upbringing that perhaps taught you life is meaningless without religious belief. You have since sought out many beliefs and bounced back and forth until you finally found something you can believe in and feel good about. If this is the only way to find meaning in your life then go with it.

Personally, I think the problem is your NEED to find a religious belief as the only thing which will give your life meaning, but it's people like you why religion is a $$billion a year global business! I don't think it hurts to believe in whatever makes you happy.