(i was gonna put this in the monthly thread but then it got longer so here it is. if a mod wants to move it there, whatever.)
im really not sure what to say anymore. i might have reached the end of my poker rope. this is hard to take. ive resorted to everything and anything. im tired of saying im running bad so i dont really know what to say now. i study the game everyday, i work hard. i evaluate myself. im mentored by one of the most successful hsnl pros on these board but
i. cant. win. anymore.
every week seems just like this.
and then there's the long run... since novemberish.
i have hundreds of thousands of hands winning. i just dont remember what its like anymore. im desperate. im tired. i just dont know.