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wait - do you just not want to hang out with friends or are you actually more nervous hanging out with them?

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i want to hang out with them, but i'm anxious about hanging out with them in any numbers greater then like 2-3, and for any lengths greater then an hour or two.

sometimes if there's a party or bbq, i'll be excited to see people, then when i get home, i just want to go home and hideaway.

also sometimes there'll be somethign going on with a big group, and i'll think of every excuse mentally, not to go.

i've also been dealing with some depression, so i'm sure that plays into it.

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This is how I feel a lot of the time. At first I'm pumped to go out, then I start wondering why I agreed to it but realize I'm stuck and go anyway. Within an hour of seeing people I'm mentally drained and want to go home. It's not that I don't want to see people. It just feels very overwhelming. I/we should probably see a doctor and get some happy pills.