[Abramovic]

That's pretty sick, and tough to take I can imagine.

I would try moving right down to 25NL and take a bankroll of $400 or so. At first itll seem stupid and you may spew because the money means nothing, but itll force you to adapt and beat the game. When you make about 10 BIs, move up to 50NL, adapt again, and the money will start seeming more real. Itll prove to yourself you can win at the game, give you some confidence, and itll only take 10K hands.