[captZEEbo]

haha yeah, I guess I should shift off my manic writings sooner since most people don't like it I guess. Most of these writings were directly copy/pasted from the week before I crashed and went TO a psyche ward. Before the psyche ward I was staying up 20 hours a day, smoking weed constantly, and not eating. At the end of the week long manic phase I stayed in a psyche ward for a week and now I'm a different person on bipolar meds. I was trying to give a window into my manic phase, what caused my breakdown, and how I came to go in a mental hospital. Guess it wasn't as interesting as I thought. I'm pretty much in my own world now, so I'm not sure what people find interesting anymore.

I still find it interesting because I'm on the quest to finding meaning in life and I think these philosophical ideas are helping me decide the meaning of life...
Is ignorance really bliss and do people actually want to enslave themselves to different institutions (money, religion, govt, family, society, etc) in order to find balance and sanity?

I also find it funny how fickle my relationship was with my readers. I try to explain how I went through a complete breakdown, you know, something on a much more personal non-superficial level and they quickly reject me.