[JanelleBB7]

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If you want to be a donkament player then you can certainly let your emotions run free reign. Read some of the (excellent) stuff my Tommy Angelo - he has a website with a lot of archive stuff. Also watch an episode of High Stakes Poker and see how much emotion a Barry Greenstein or Patrik Antonious show before, during and after a hand. Then watch Mike Matusow or Phil Hellmuth. Then decide what kind of player you want to be.

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Will read TA like you said Dave. I think although I am emotional I am nothing like Mike Matusow or Phil Hellmuth. I don't have a whole rant lol in chat when I get bad beat. I am in good about controling that type of tilt behavior, but I did work myself up over the whole FTOPS thing and that was, in retrospect, a bad idea.

I get a little overtly excited sometimes. I am extremely passionate. Usually always in a positve way.

I wanted to win it so badly. I set myself up for a big disappointment. I think I can learn to deal with losing much better if I do look at it more as a hobby then a competition or something I MUST succeed at.

I am feeling much better. My bf lol of all people really helped me on the whole poker topic. He isn't a big fan of it or me playing it, but remarkably he said something that really changed my attitude about it. He said, "What do you care if you lose all your poker money. It is all profit isn
't it? It is not like you have any expenses or are expected to pay for school."

This is all true. I don't even need the money right now. I realized my disappointment is not about money but about losing.

I think my disappointment is from unrealistic goals I set for myself and now I will focus on trying to have real goals which I can actually accomplish or LOL even better don't have goals. Just play the game and enjoy it like Troll said.

I think when people started telling me how good I was I felt the pressure to do extremely well because I wanted to be the best. I think if I just enjoy myself and do what I know how to do I will end up being the best over a long period of time with experience.

Your posts strike a cord with me Dave because you have a lot of experience and realize I am in the early stages of evolving into a poker player.

LOL Gordo.. I think maybe you want me to quit poker because you don't want to have to contend with me later! That is too funny I am NOT quiting poker.