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jimm come on man are you really an idiot? Nothing personal but is it really so hard to just play stakes you can afford? You sound like you can at least beat micro stakes, why not just stay there and grind and actually get yourself a bankroll??? Then you would get to keep your paychecks for real life,and might actually see some money coming into your bank account FROM poker.

Get over all your self-pitying psychoanalysis and just be a man and take care of business ffs.

Seriously do you want to be a pitiful broke dumbass gambler your whole life?

I mean this in the nicest way possible as a former drug addict that felt sorry for myself for my own self created problem.

You get to choose how you live your life. You can choose to be a broke degenerate, or you can get your act together.

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Well said! Before I was into poker, I was into booze - I've not written about this enough in my blog, I really should - and for six months after I quit, I went to AA. I think I internalised the line about having "no mental defence" when it comes to my addiction. Like I can't listen to the little voice telling me that perhaps depositing my rent money when I'm steaming (or even when I'm not) isn't a good idea. I need to start believing in my own willpower a bit more, that I am the active agent in my life, and every day is about making choices. Right now I'm mainly making bad ones, but it needn't be that way.

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Good luck with that. I got a guilt trip from someone about me not doing better, so I spent the last week in drug-induced reflection hoping for an epiphany. Reduced the options to (a) get [censored] now, or (b) earn money to get [censored] later.

Can't see the difference, personally. YMMV.