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Yeah, you guys are right. It all came crashing down when med school started because that is when the work started coming in. I started dating her again when she was working in a research lab. The problem was that she was living in a dump where her landlord, who was her roommate, was a bitch. It stressed her out so much that it was like the ONLY thing she talked about 24/7. Honestly, you couldn't go a day without her talking about how terrible it was for at least 20 minutes. When she'd go home, then her and her parents would talk about it for 30 minutes and I'd have to sit there thinking, "Come on, can't you talk about something better!?!?!?" I mean, it's like they reinforce their pessimistic negativity (is that a double negative?).

The thing that bothers me too is during her white coat ceremony, one of the doctors gave a speech and said something like, "it may not always be easy, but don't give up your relationships because they will be your biggest support." And that was what I was trying to be. I even mentioned it to her because if it came from another doctor, then it might as well have been from God himself. And I always said to her, "Nobody said it was going to be easy, but it doesn't have to be that hard."

The reason why she wants to be a doctor is because her dad was in a hanggliding accident several years ago and it screwed him up pretty badly. He has a lot of neurological problems, motor problems, and he has been in and out of the hospital. She has dealt with a few neurosurgeons and they always get the run around. She wants to go in and make the system better for her part.

She is high strung, most of the time, and high maintenance. She can be great most of the time, but it was like 1 week a month she would start questioning us and what she wanted and we'd argue constantly. She was always upset because I would never ask her to do anything and it was always her who made plans. Well, that was because I wanted to do what she wanted to do because it made me feel like she was happy doing what she wanted to do. And she said, "all I want is for you to ask me to do some things." So I worked on it. But I even said, "So I ask you to do some things and then it'll be something else that isn't right." It was a never ending cirle that you couldn't catch up with.

But like I said, when she could let loose and calm down and just be a best friend and girlfriend, she was the most amazing girl in the world and I knew that person was on the inside. I tried to get it out of her, but she wouldn't budge.

I can admit though that I knew that medical school was going to be hard on our relationship and I was afraid this was going to happen. I thought we could work through it and everything would be fine, but obviously it's not. I'm not sure what I wanted out of this, but I do know I just wanted to be with her and it didn't matter because I was content. I honestly was just happy knowing that she was mine and I was willing to go through hurdles to make it work. I have that flexibility to be able to bend over backwards for her and do what is right for her, but she was so ungrateful.