[Jeffrey Dahmer]

I will preface this by saying that I am not a minor, but can't buy lottery tickets (get it?.) It all started in October of 2006. I was finally allowed by my parents to deposit $20 onto Ultimate Bet. I was really stupid and naive having never played games other than freerolls online prior to this. I jumped to .50/1.00 (LOL-with $33!) I made $40 or so in like 5 minutes. But obv. managed to lose it just as quick. I am very emotional and upon losing my money I began crying privately (very childish I know) and became very upset. This was mainly because I viewed it as my only shot at playing with real $$ online...

As apprehensive as my Dad was, he let me put another $20 on a few days later after I explained that I did not understand the concept of bankroll management to him. I played SnGs, $1 Tourneys-you name it, nothing panned out. After a week my HIGH point was $33 1 tabling .25/.50 limit. I lost that in a few days, however.

By this time I was getting noticeably upset and my parents said that this was the reason why they did not want me to play, but I was permitted to play freerolls and what not. I ran $1 to $50 a few times but never got further than that. A month or so later I was allowed to deposit $20 again but I of course lost that as well. I have a vivid memory of using my last $10 in a HU and losing to a 1-outer, I slammed the ground and was yelling/whining in the middle of the night and woke my parents up. They said no more...

...Christmas day, a month and a half since my last deposit if I remember correctly. I asked my Dad if I could deposit and I thought he said yes, so I did, but it turned out he never said yes that day. Regardless I ran through that in 2 days. Crying basically the whole time I was playing. No deposits for me in the near future! I played freerolls and did well, but obv payouts are terrible...I was finally allowed at the end of Februrary to deposit (the minimum was now $50) again. I peaked at maybe $80 playing mainly low level SnGs. I lost that...

The next time I deposited was actually a stupid scam by me. I used $100 of birthday money to deposit though they thought I used it for something else. I played only $5 SnGs this time reaching a peak level of $336. Slowly but surely it dwindled away. I was at $175 after running horribly and in amidst my rage I decided to withdraw that $175, I did but told them to cancel it later that day. I had $225 a week later or so, and withdrew (for the first time ever) $75. My last $150 went quick as I mainly tilted it off in higher level HU SnGs than I couldnt afford. So I pocketed $75 from $100 that was $300 and change at one point...

This was all extremely upsetting becaue as a young kid I had visions of getting rich quick and helping my family out (my Dad was layed off for two years and we are still experiencing financial problems because of it.) This is what upset me most. I felt like I left my family down, but they do not know this.

Enter UBs cashier center. 6 weeks later it turns out the batch of checks mine was in had been botched up. I was eventually given $20 free because of the extreme delay from UB. My Dad had still said no poker but figured I might as well use the $20 because it was doing no good sitting in there. I played $1 SnGs with that money and went from $20 to $26 to $13 and a week later after many tantrums I was down to $5. I played a HU match for $5 and had $10 to work off of. I teeter tottered around $10-30 for a week or so. Once I had it going (I thought) at $58 I dropped down to $15 or so. Then I worked my way back up and eclipsed $100 then $200. I took out $50 once I reached $210 and took out $50 once more once hitting $210. I went nowhere for awhile with SnGs so once I was down to $45 I played some cash games which I had previously been horrible at. I somehow did well and ran my roll up to $100 or so in a few days playing $10 NL. Then I won a tourney for $150. My roll was $233. I took out $125 and built the rest up to $365 through tourneys and cash games. I moved up to 25NL for a few sessions and ran horribly. I ran in circles for a few days. Then I lost $125 and thougt the world was over. Down to $200 I played a $100 HU SnG...and lost. I then had $110. I deposited $20 to activate an Epassporte account and had $131 today. After various beats in tourneys and SnGs today I am now at $52...

Here are my serious questions:

I have $52, do I withdraw that and just take a break till I get $60 for rakeback in 2 weeks?

Do I quit forever because I can not handle it?

Play 10NL with $5 BIs like I had done previously?

Withdraw the money and rakeback money and get new video game system instead of Poker?

One last thing. I have nothing to do besides tennis, house work and a job 1 or 2 days a week (which is boring as hell.) I do not like hanging out with the kids I do AT school OUTSIDE of school because I do not like drugs/alcohol because again I would feel like I let my parents down. Keep my boredom in mind, because that is what helped lead me to my current state.

Thanks all...