[Stoneflip]

Read the whole post. One positive that you fail to mention is that you still care. If you didn't you wouldn't be writing this post. Quit the dope while you still care. Once the dope has you quit caring, you are too far gone. You seem to know what you need to do. You also need to think of why relationship trouble gets you so depressed? There might be other factors in your self esteem that need to be addressed, as you might be basing your own worth on her affection. Again I am not in the relationship so I dont know, only you do. Im in Norcal, PM me if you want to talk or hang out sometime.