Re: My massive psychology post. My life seems to be at a fork.
I have just a couple of points to make:
(1) Smoking marijuana (especially everyday) will raise your estrogen levels markedly while reducing your body's testosterone levels. This is a major issue, especially given your current depressive state. If you can quit smoking and perhaps occasionally lift weights, you'll probably notice yourself beginning to feel more optimistic and confident.
(2) I really don't think any of this is a huge deal, and you'll probably be laughing about it a few months down the road if you address the weed problem. Obviously you love the girl very much, but your mindset might well change once your hormones reach homeostasis. Your relationship reminds me a great deal of my first "serious" relationship that I had when i was 18-19, and I look back now and laugh at how immature and ridiculous I was. And I don't mean that in a pejorative way at all, just remember there are many fish in the sea.
You're in good financial shape, have a good job, etc. You'll be fine, just straighten out the drug issue. Good luck.
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