[buddha01]

[Poker, Texas No Limt]

I did it again.

Nov, log in, deposit $725, worked it up to $3.2k, after being awake for I dont know how many hours, I leaked and donated it all away, not my A game at all.

Just yesterday, Log in, deposited $1000, went up and down then bang, went up to $3.7k, then of course what do I do, I stay on the tables tired and leak and give it away, I even went heads up against a guy with a 10k stack with me having just over 3.2k. I would never do that with my head on.

Every month since January Ive logged in deposited money double triple and once or twiced quaded up my money.


I am seriously considering quiting poker.

My finachel situation is dire, 14k load with 2k of non repayment, repayments. (I should pay £250 a month).

I just dont know what to make of myself, guy was with me watching me play, he said your A game is very good but you dont know when you quit.

I play away from home in an internet cafe, this is all aceddemic because, oh man this is really bad, I blew my wages again but its not even for this month, I was given my january wages early, I am fecked no rent money with only £160 left in my account.

Can any one relate to what Im saying, have you been in the situation and how if at all did you get over it, its like what the *** use is it if you can grind trick bluff your way into quading your money up if your going to sit there when your over cooked and give it all back and then some.

Good rule, 100% up turn is nothing if you have %200 down turn because your *** moron.

All the guys told me when I got up to 3.7k to leave it man go home, it was 4am and I had nothing better to do, darn that stack would have enabled me to take some harsh bad beats at the low sakes tables and work it up to 5k or more.

Sorry but note Ive posted this in the right area, I dont want other poker players wasting there time reading this.

I earn 21.5k a year uk, I guess Ill quit, then when I have my loan paid off and Im clear Ill go back to the tables, Playing your way out of debt is not possile, you just want to win to much, for to stop I would have to win 7>15k with 1k buy in. What can you do if get what you want but still wont stop.