Big wins kinda eating up my emotions
 

I have been fricken killing 5-10, 10-20 NL online for the last 6 months. Ive only played part time and am up about 200k. It seems every fricken time I sit down for a couple few hours i make at leasta couple thousand. I then just won a tourny for 25k a couple days ago. I don't play tourny much anymore.. just on sunday.

Anyway... I am very excited about what is going on and I just want to tell everyone, but after telling a few people about my wins when i first started winning big I sensed jealousy. I'd be like dude I won 8k last night! And their reactions weren't very excited. So now I feel like I have all this emotion building up inside of me with the more I win because I don't tell anyone anymore.

I'm even forced to goto a counseler right now through the courts because of a 2nd dui. So i told her what was on my mind... basically just money. Then she went on about how she thinks im addicted to gambling and all this [censored] and im thinkin.. jesus.. anybody would want to play all the time if you were winning thousands per session. I dunno.. I just be ramblin.. any other successful players ever get this feeling?

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The counselor will tell you the same exact thing every single time if you bring up poker. Tell her you have never lost a session, you play controlled and within your BR. She'll tell you you're addicted to gambling.

They don't comprendo.

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just because you're winning it doesn't mean you're not addicted to gambling.

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ya big wins are real hard on me to... i much prefer to lose

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just because you're winning it doesn't mean you're not addicted to gambling.

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this is true

its also possible that youre addicted to poker, the same way people become addicted to world of warcraft and other games, or to making money, the same way brokers and other rich people do. its not like a "chemical addiction" in the traditional sense but anything that you don't feel like you have control over/you do compulsively/dominates the overwhelming majority of your life probably isnt a good thing. everything in moderation and all that.

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Don't go bragging about it just keep it to yourself. If people care they will ask and if you don't mind sharing then share. Also congrats on the success.

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woot thinly veiled brag, and don't brag, smooth ballas don't talk about winnings and don't talk about poker with people who don't understand it

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YA YESTERDAY I WON LIKE 200K AND I WAS LIKE DAMN IM ALL DEPRESSED AND [censored] CUZ MY FRIENDS DONT HAVE 200K AND STUFF THEN I DRANK AND DROVE LOLZORSZ

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it's almost impossible to talk about this kind of stuff without people getting jealous. most people work for 8 hours a day and make much less than 1 buy in for any of these games. if you had just busted your ass to make a few 100 at a day job, and someone told you they just made 8k playing poker for a few hours, would your first reaction be happiness? instead of talking about it, maybe share some of the wealth. then, maybe your friends might be more excited about your success.

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The counselor will tell you the same exact thing every single time if you bring up poker. Tell her you have never lost a session, you play controlled and within your BR. She'll tell you you're addicted to gambling.

They don't comprendo.

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O'rllY?

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Nobody wants to hear about your money unless you're planning on buying them something.

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YA YESTERDAY I WON LIKE 200K AND I WAS LIKE DAMN IM ALL DEPRESSED AND [censored] CUZ MY FRIENDS DONT HAVE 200K AND STUFF THEN I DRANK AND DROVE LOLZORSZ

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this thread should have more responses like this - awesome

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Nobody wants to hear about how much you're making unless they ask you

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my therapist is pretty cool and doesnt think i have a gambling problem because i play poker because i just explained to her that its a game of skill and not luck like slots or something

shes also really hot in a milf sort of way

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Definitely try to hit that and post pics and graphs.

OP- Thin line separates addictions from non addictions I guess.
Therapists see gambling and behaviors that fall outside of some norm and try to put labels on it at times.
I guess what matters is how you feel a) about what you do and b) how you think others perceive you and how that affects you.

The answer isnt in a text book or on some clinical notes.
Take in whatever info you think is helpful and run with it.
Find whatever balance you think you want. That simple and tough.

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Nobody wants to hear about how much you're making unless you're a losing player

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Crappy friends, if you ask me, they should be happy for you, not jealous.

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I'm pretty sure your court appointed counselor writes up a report that goes to the judge of your case. Why the hell are you telling her you play poker?!?

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Crappy friends, if you ask me, they should be happy for you, not jealous.

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it gets kinda old when he says, "zomg I made $xxxx today!" every single day to them

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When you have a big downswing, tell all your friends and watch them giggle and jump with glee. Then everything will be alright.

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Crappy friends, if you ask me, they should be happy for you, not jealous.

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it gets kinda old when he says, "zomg I made $xxxx today!" every single day to them

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especially if they're young and work crap min wagish jobs.

But then again, I'm 30, make 100K and I wouldn't appreciate one of my friends telling me how they made 8K in two hours every day. You just don't do that.

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up about 200k.

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2nd dui

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Cab, maybe?

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Your friends suck. Go for a third or fourth dui and they may begin to like you again. (maybe)

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i am disappointed by the number of serious replies in this thread.

take that [censored] to the Psych forum.

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This is what always sucks when you achieve success, BUT it shows who really wants you good and who doesn't so it is a good way to figure out who is your real friends and wish you well, dump those who don't.

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some people in Ukraine work for a month to earn $50.

ok, on a serious note (if this poster is for real) I'll leave you with this wonderful poorly paraphrased quote from Henry Miller:

If you ever really in need of help, only your enemies or strangers will be there to help you out.

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i am disappointed by the number of serious replies in this thread.

take that [censored] to the Psych forum.

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quickly

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Just took my buddy to the strip club last night and paid his whole way.. dropped $800.. we got drunk.. he drove... got home and I threw a plastic garbage can at his POS truck and it hit the windshield and spidered it.. now i gotta pay for that [censored] too. Spendin money ain't makin me feel any better. I think the stress is actually caused by my trouble with the law. I can't even relieve stress by drinkin at strips clubs cuz I have to test for alchol every morning so i have to monitor how much I drink and cut off by 11 at the latest. Then I wake yp frakin out that im gonna blow dirty. Did win $3k after the club last night though in 2 hours which was nice.

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Just took my buddy to the strip club last night and paid his whole way.. dropped $800.. we got drunk.. he drove... got home and I threw a plastic garbage can at his POS truck and it hit the windshield and spidered it.. now i gotta pay for that [censored] too. Spendin money ain't makin me feel any better. I think the stress is actually caused by my trouble with the law. I can't even relieve stress by drinkin at strips clubs cuz I have to test for alchol every morning so i have to monitor how much I drink and cut off by 11 at the latest. Then I wake yp frakin out that im gonna blow dirty. Did win $3k after the club last night though in 2 hours which was nice.

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you sir, will go a long way in this forum.

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lol DUIaments!