Prs to be making me less broke? Financial Follies

[Anacardo]

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Cardo,

So, are you really a twin? I thought your sister was considerably older than you.

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Dude, do you not remember me flying up to NY last year for 'our' birthday? Guy Incognito picked up on this first thing - oh, says he, you must be twins.

Oh. You're thinking of my half-sister, the mysterious one with the young'uns. Yeah, we finally met up. Good times had by all, etc.

[IggyWH]

Can I write your sister an email?

[Anacardo]

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Can I write your sister an email?

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GET BACK IN YOUR OWN [censored] THREAD YOU [censored] [censored]-FOR-BRAINS.

[IggyWH]

Come on, let me send her just 1 email! I'll stake you.

[fifield]

....maybe tuq is right?

[Anacardo]

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....maybe tuq is right?

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I categorically deny. Tell that dipwad to get a haircut pls.

[By-Tor]

thread progression:

meh, meh, zzzzz.z.zz, lol, mah, meh, good (when I posted), zzzzz.z.z, meh, wtf, zzzzzzz.z.zzz

[FluffyTiger]

Okay so this post probably belonged in your 'why should I wish to live' thread

I'd first like to discus the two-way hostility going on in this thread. Anacardo, by rejecting the "go get em! don't take NO for an answer!" I think it's a heavy insult upon the adviser. It's like you are calling the philosphy he lives by REDONKULOUS. And vica versa when they tell you your current philosophy of "omg life is pointless" is flawed and you need to grow the f up. REDONKULOUS YOU BE.

I don't think you got enough love for your opening in that other thread:

Why should I wish to live?

This is a question that tends to be met with hostility and derision, in my experience; the presumably happy majority seems never to encounter it at all, from cradle to grave, regarding the answer as somehow self-evident. The act of asking seems to mark one as bearing some sort of infectious disease, that people are shy of catching.

And of course after the two way implied "your philosophy is mistaken", which is kind of unavoidable, the thread was filled with hostility. I think people are sensitive about the beliefs they have lived by for however many years. I think this is the main reason for the huge threads, I don't think the only reason is people just want to help you

btw I think I'm kinda with you. I just was in the city today, and being surrounded by your stereotypical drones literally made me feel ill. I'm not sure I can put my figure on what's so revolting about them and their minds to me.

<u>My Advice</u>

Well, I'd really have to know what you want out of life/what you think the point in life is/your life philosophy or whatever. Care to divulge? The philosphy I recommend is all you should care about is making yourself feel good. I think El Diablo's advice of getting into fencing is very good, as this would seem to make you feel pretty good. If you can't get a job, try to help out some place for free, get some experience that way. Or if that's not possible, pay to be in a club or whatever. Endure a [censored] job while you are trying to move up the ladder into a paying job involving fencing

Also, I recommend this way of painlessly reducing your ego:

Realize any definition of 'smart' or 'intelligence' is way to general, and almost arbitrary. It's just not 1-dimensional. I bet you don't understand General Relativity as well as I do, does this mean I'm smarter than you? I can make more money at poker, am I smarter?

You can still claim to be 5 std devs from the mean when you project your intelligence onto one or two particular dimensions (as in like, the philosophical dimension or whatever)

This allows you to realize you are mediocre at some things. I think this will be beneficial to you, while keeping most of your ego intact if you wish

<u>My Own Experiences (long, optional reading)</u>

I had a massive ego. I looked down on just about every person in the world. I even suspect this was the main reason a few of my relationships didn't work - she was just too stupid for me. I've since realized the above about smartness not being 1d, and even though I still think I'm totally awesome at some stuff, I now think there's plenty of mental stuff I'm entirely mediocre at. I look down on people a whole lot less now. And for whatever reason, this makes me feel a bit better

I thought life was pointless. I went through periods of bad depression, close-ish to suicide, etc. (though not as bad as yours it would seem). I am naturally a very compassionate person, and I was struggling hard to come up with a logical moral system in a godless world. I went through many, never happy with any, but came across and settled upon this:

right - doing whatever I think will make me feel best
wrong - opposite

furthermore, it's impossible for me to do wrong. (everyone is inherently selfish etc. etc.) so really, my definitions of right and wrong are kinda worthless. I don't really believe in right or wrong, people do what they do

This one felt pretty good, and after running with it for a while I started to feel quite good. And that's good when your goal in life/the meaning of life is to feel good

Physics was kinda interesting to me. Understanding the Universe sounded like a kind of fulfilling thing to do. Maybe one day we'll even figure out how it came to be through physics, maybe I could be a part of that. But I lost my passion for it around the last year of my degree, I was in the 'life is pointless' at the time. After I graduated I decided against hopping into a PHD. I had it in the back of my mind I wanted to work on a stock market algorithm, but never got around to it

The void in my life basically got filled with poker. I shot up to 400NL, and sat around all day playing on average about 1 hour a day, but at $200/hour that ain't bad. Around about this time I settled into my current philosophy, life is ok. Looking back, I think the reason I wasn't trying to work on a stock market algorithm was a subconscious fear of failure. Yeah, really. I thought and still think I have the potential to be the best stock market algorithm creator in the world (like I said, huge ego), but whenever I sat down and put a bit of effort, I very easily voluntary put it off at the slightest problem I ran into. The thought would creep into my mind "oh [censored] maybe some of those other guys are actually better than me at this"

Maybe this is something you are currently experiencing as others have suggested, maybe not. Maybe in the future you will experience it

Well anyway I decided to go traveling for various reasons (I highly recommend it), it was surprising. It wasn't good in the way I hoped it would be, but it was quite good. I met some interesting people (surprising, I didn't think they existed).

Let me give a shout out to my nigerian magicninja whom I crossed paths with for a few weeks. He was very passionate about poker, and really altered my view on 'hard work vs talent' in determining success in almost any way you define success. I reckon I was severely not giving enough props to how much 'hark work' affects your success. Considering what you have said about your poker, dare I say you have been to?

Anyway it inspired me to nut up and compete with the rest of the world in my efforts to make 100 billion+ via market algorithm (I will consider any less than 100B a failure). Only after I pushed through my fear of failure did I realize it's existence. I think what makes me the best in the world is:

I have the opportunity
I have the necessary combo of ability to understand mathematics, and creativity
I have passion
I have the balls to say I'm the best in the world by doing this. I reckon many with the above three still wouldn't even attempt this (this is mainly due to my approach which will result in all or nothing)

But whatever obv no one will believe me here. That's cool I don't expect them too. Instead of arguing the above to be true I'll just wait to till I actually have 100B+, that should provide some pretty good evidence

I've been going slow due to my traveling habit and subsequent required poker, but I'm very into it atm.

So lately, like about the last year of my life, I think I've been happier than ever. I enjoy my nachos, my sex, my traveling, my drugs, and most of all my algorithm. It's mental masturbation, competition, proving my ego is justified (part of competition sorta), and the end goal of it makes me feel fulfilled: Once I have that much money, I can change a significant amount of the world as I see fit

To conclude, I recommend you find something you feel passionate about, as that will likely lead you to feel good. For me, it might lead me to feel awesome for 'winning', and feel good for the good I reckon I can do for the world (other's feeling good makes me feel good). In fact that's the main reason I'm passionate about it in the first place

[FluffyTiger]

woops, killed the thread

[xxThe_Lebowskixx]

"I quote from Mr. George Orwell -

"The feeling, 'This is what I came into the world to do. Everything else is uninteresting. I will do this even if it means starvation', which turns men of differing temperaments into scientists, inventors, artists, priests, explorers, serial killers and revolutionaries - this motif is almost entirely absent..."


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