beat: depressed. my life as i know it is over.

[FishNChips]

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i am starting this job on monday but i know what it entails, my brother did it for 3 years and hated it. anyone i know who is doing it hates it.

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you applied for it why?

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but for 3 years of doing a terrible job you spend the rest of your life earning $100k+.

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$100k is nice after 3 yrs. Its also tiny compared to what you can earn if you're really making $200/hr playing poker. Help me understand y poker isn't an option?
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but then part of me thinks [censored] this [censored], i don't want to spend my life as an adult, wasting my 20s away. i have no plans to ever have kids or get married (-ev), in fact suicide in early 30s is very likely (if i dont die by then due to health), so till then i might as well enjoy myself rather than do stupid job.

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problem is i want to be rich. doing this job if i work hard = rich down the road. but i don't want to take the road of boredom.

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you need to figure out how long you plan to live. being rich doesn't matter if you're going to die/kys at 35. have to spend too much time/effort to get rich and then u don't have time to spend it. Just move to spain.

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i think after my first week ill likely ask if i can defer for a year, but my feeling is that my ill slowly tolerate it, a good day in the life of john kane will then be one where i didnt have to do 2 hours of overtime.

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maybe get a cat?


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also i feel wtf was the point in me grinding some money (about $170k now got saved up) if still means im living at home, im still end out doing same [censored] job.

[/ QUOTE ] i feel like wtf too. u have $170k saved and still live at home... do mommy&daddy really totally control ur life?

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[censored] it, im going to go send email to a friend who hopefully is coming over to london in december and getting a job and ill go live with him - he is hopefully getting rent free some balla pad on oxford street in london - that would be a lot better.

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wtf? $170k saved and you are looking to bum a place to live off a friend? wtf? get ur own pad, play at a slightly lower level until you build back up, work 1/2 the year, travel half the year.

~FishNChips